Could I actually make peace with a life without children? I was in the mall with DH and infront of us is a dad walking with his toddler hand and hand. This kid is screaming, dropping himself on the floor, twisting and nearly trips his dad. This poor father is so embarrassed and is trying to calm the kid but to no avail. At that moment….. I think maybe.
We continue our shopping, proceed to the checkout and a few tills down is a baby couldn’t be more than a month old. Shrieking. Mom is trying to get groceries through the checkout, calm the baby, smile at everyone who is now staring (some knowing looks of understanding and some stares of irritation) and she looks exhausted. At that moment….. I think maybe.
Occassionally our neighbours baby has a tough night and being a townhouse. I hear that baby scream every hour on the hour. Very faint cos of the walls but I hear her. Both parents work and feel sorry for them because I know they are up and out the house before me at 6:30am. At that moment… I think maybe.
Then DH and I park off infront of the tv with all our favourite shows PVRed. Lets just get some take-aways and have an early night. At that moment…. I think maybe.
So why am I so desperate for a baby. Is it just nature? I feel happy and content just being the two of us but I just cant quit. a