Getting DH on board with the last cycle was already a mission on its own. I chugged along on my own and basically only had him along on ER day obviously.
Last night we had a chat about the next step. I want to try DE IVF, he wants to think about it. He wants to know when am I going to make peace with the fact that it is just not happening and that he is approaching 40 and the idea of being a 50 year old with a 10 year old kid is not appealing. WHAT THE ACTUAL F&CK. Needless to say, I lost it. He knows how important this it to me. I cannot imagine going through the rest of my life without a child. He seems to be quite happy with it just being the 2 of us and his son on the weekends. I don’t want that at all.
I have given him 2 weeks to think about it (he is a major procrastinator and will drag this out till I am completely barron). What if he says no. I don’t think I could live with it and if I did I will resent him for it.